Betrayal

Sometimes I wonder how far can I swallow the betrayal? I guess I'm pretty good at it.
I wish those who betrayed enjoy the same suffering as I do. But they did, and was worse than mine.

So should I still hope for their sadness, or I just swallow them and get on with it. After all, at the end of everyday people will tell you never mind and let it be.

But have they ever thought about me? That I don't want to give in? I guess not, because they did not went through the shit. I am.

I would like to betray someday. But I just don't have the heart and energy to do so, right now. Please don't push me to the corner. I will know, I'm not dead.