I'm Begging

I'm begging for peace in my mind. I'm begging for those shits to get out from my head.

Please. Can't I have a moment of peace and serenity? I need to fill myself up with good essence, not all these pains and sorrow. I desperately need something good to happen in my life now, but I can't even get the simplest peace in mind!

I'm begging. Please. I don't even want to care about anything now. I just want some quiet moments with nothing in my head. Please.

Do I have to wait till the day I die? Is that what I should do?