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Saturday, July 27, 2013

Online Game Addiction

And just when I thought I'm wayyyy past my MapleStory Adventure craze, I'm hooked on something else. I'm not especially proud when I say this, but it is a China server RPG.

I know, why China.

It just happened when I stumbled across this game page and I itchy hand go click inside. Then from that moment on the only thing I knew is I have to log in everyday in that game, or else I'll feel something not right. And it was to the extent that I'm going gaga all over the town to find cash reload for this game, and when I finally got it, I spent all of it in one hour and I reload again the next day.

I know, FML.

Nevertheless, I'm finally happy for a bit because of this alias identity in this virtual realm. At least, I'm happy.

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Passion Lost

It's been ages since I last updated this blog. Proves that I've found another channel to pour all my negativity in life. 

But it doesn't solve anything anyway. Life still goes on the same way every day and I'm Judy drifting through most of it. Day in day out, it's just a repetition every single day. 

Today my student told me, " You're just here for the salary, right?"

At that moment I was speechless. All I could do was just laughed it off. But I gave it a deep thought after I went back home. Would I still be here if it wasn't for the money? 

Life and reality, all of us would have to face it irregardless of the easy way or the hard way. I took it upon myself that I must provide for my family, and so I stay. But am I happy? Honestly, I don't even know how should I feel now. 

All I know is this life is draining my passion out of me. I used to get excited for things, but now, I just shrugged my shoulders for everything. Nothing surprises me, nothing retains my interest, nothing. 

Is all these worth it? Can my calling be answered someday? 

I pray.