I Need Help

I shouldn't go on like this, I know.

It feels like I have nothing in life now, and now I'm desperately seeking for something to hold on. I don't know how long this situation could last, I just hope that everything will be over, or perhaps I'm wishing for my life to be ended.

I hate this negative aura that surrounds me, but I can't seem to control them. I'm not looking all over for them but they always manage to come to my hiding place. I have no more place to hide, nor too tired to play hide and seek. I need a log in my pool of water, I need a saviour.

I don't want to make anymore mistakes. Any mistake could kill me now, easily. My shining stars dimmed, and I'm lost. Where are you when I need you the most?