The Perfect Way

There's once a person told me, there's always a perfect way for everything.. The perfect solution for every problem.. but I've always wonder. Where is the perfect way for the obstacles in my life? I've look everywhere but seems that the so-called perfect solution is no where to be found.. So my question is, where the heck is the perfect way?

Just recently I’ve met a guy, who is very tall, gentle but naughty. When I look at him I see someone that I could never be, someone that I can never achieve in my entire life. And when I say this I don’t mean his height ( obviously =X ) but the way he carried himself in front of me and some attitudes that I see when I see him. I’ve never seen anyone like him, 21 but matured, know exactly what he wants and where is he going. And suddenly I feel so ashamed in front of him. The difference of 1 year old has such as large gap on us. In front of him I don’t feel like I’m 20 but 8, a girl who has just started to grow up and get to know this world. We are so different, so apart, and now I’m now even sure that do I have the rights to like him or even love him?

This few days I tried to contact him, but after 1 or 2 tries I gave up. I don’t know if he’s busy or what, but I just don’t dare to know the truth. I’m scared that I’ll get to know that he’s actually avoiding me, to avoid my feelings for me to turn deeper into something serious. And maybe, he’s right to do that, since he’s so wise and matured. Maybe we should not be in further relationship. The things that he had told me, about accompany me when I’m changing; maybe it’s just a mere promise from a friend, nothing more than that. And maybe I’m the one who’s thinking too much, all this while he’s acting as a friend, and I'm the only one who's take it so seriously and believe that he’s not the same like those I’ve always knew. And now, I know that, I’m wrong.

So what is the lesson that I’ve learnt from this? I’ve learnt that: The perfect way for someone to stop growing feelings for another person, is to stop contacting him or her, and avoid him or her as much as possible. I’ve tried it, and it works. It really works.