Shifted Focus

Shifted the other one here as well. No point continuing there, it will only make me look more pathetic.

I'm coping well I guess, at least there's no tears for the whole day. I'm actually able to stay calm and laugh at a few things. I should compliment myself. Good job, J.

Yet I felt the silence, the long and quietness of this day. First day is usually the hardest to get used to. But I make a clear mental note of not to do anything about it. I MUST refrain myself from letting loose, I MUST stop anymore possible connection. I MUST let go.

I guess I need to try a little more harder. Just hold on for a month. Then, 2 months. Then, a year. Then, forever.

But can I stand this long? Can I?