I Can't Believe Myself

Sometimes when I say something to myself, like some sort of self assurance. And after a while I'll eat back my own words.

I can't believe that I'm saying this right now, but sometimes even I myself can't trust myself. It's like this what-the-fuck situation where I can't even control it.

I contradict myself so much that even myself can't trust myself.

I will soon get fatter for eating my own words so often.

And I can't believe I say this right now, I regret saying all the things I've said all these while. I regret them and I wish nothing had happened. Then nothing would have to change, I would not have to change.