Christmas

I'm used to have a quiet Christmas on my own. Friends nearby aren't so keen on this holiday, except for some online wishing and seasonal greetings.

Christmas this year doesn't make any difference. I am still as broke as hell, friends are still not encouraging. So I stayed home and watched some awesome shows to countdown.

Merry Christmas people! Wishing you all a happy and prosperous year ahead! :)

Greed

One of the seven deadly sins that I have committed - Greed.

I admit that I have never contented with what I have. I always wanted more, because I think I deserve what others could have. So when people around me have something new, I wanted one. I worked hard to earn one and get one.

I always thought there's nothing wrong with this greed. It was a motivation for me to do things, it pushed me to my limits, it makes me more hardworking.

But when this greed apply to my relationships in life, it is no more a good thing. This greed made me ugly. I am as needy as you can possibly imagine. I am full of jealousy. I want things more than I could possibly have.

This greed made me feel upset about a lot of things, and made me always full of doubt. I could never trust again, nor give my entire heart and soul to one. I am that greedy.

When I have committed this sin, is there any chance that I could undo it? Is there some way to curb it?