Why Is It So Hard To Trust?

After everything that I've been through, I've realized that I have this trust issue. Not to one person in particular, but in general. I generally do not simply trust anyone that is around me.

Is it because that person has not done enough to earn my trust yet?

Is it because of those unintentional actions that they made, caused the distrust?

Or is it simply because of me? That I am the one who chose not to trust?

Dilemma. Might as well off the lights and sleep tonight.

Bad Guy

I was wondering if I'm the bad guy in this whole situation. It seems like two different stories have been told to two parties.

So I'm the bad guy now?

I don't know how should I respond to that. Like seriously.

After 2 Weeks, Finally The Tears

I don't know if you're reading this. I'm assuming you do.

Thank you for the concern. I'll take good care of myself. Though I might find someone better, or worse, I'll never find someone just like you.

You were once the world for me. But everything has to change now. I guess life would still go on without you, and your's without me. I hope for the best for both of us, I really do.

I love you. Bye.

February 2012

Originally I have a blogpost stored away in my draft section. Was thinking whether or not to post it, but in the end decided not to. What's the point of posting it anyway, it had lost it's purpose. Nothing has to be said and done again, the end means the end.

Moving on to the second month of the new year. Chinese New Year was officially the end, so does my relationship. I've only told certain closest friends about this, and decided not to change anything abruptly on the web. That's the least that I could do, I would break this slowly to those people whom we both know. But if he chooses to tell it, I have no grudge against it.

Had a short break this month and spent it with my cousin and friends in JB and Singapore. Really thank you all for making my day, all those touring around and shopping, it was really fun. Thanks for all the concerns - hugs and kisses for you all. :)


Gift from JX. Thank you. It really reminds me of your big laughter. :P

Thanks for all the attention and time. Thank you for all the concerns. Thanks you for your wake up call every single morning and booty call every single night. Thank you for your patience, your kindness, and your love. I really felt appreciated.

Looking forward for the Valentine weekend with you. <3

Happy February everyone, I'm counting days to my March one week holiday. 31 days to go! :P

New Beginning

SMK Yong Peng, I was told to go there to live for the next few years.

I can't really imagine how is it, but I tell myself everything will be fine.

It seems like that is the only thing that I could tell myself,

EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE.

Should've, Would've, Could've

I should've not even start,
I would've re-do everything all over again,
I could've do things differently.

But I guess everything's too late now.
What's done cannot be undone.

Regrets are the biggest bitch in life, yet the most true.

I should, I would, IF I could.

Lamentation of New Year

In a blink of an eye 2011 went by. 2012 crept into our lives with much celebration. Lots of things had changed and happened to me while making the big leap of year, and none of it that I'm really proud to share. Friends are decreasing in numbers, my life is losing its purpose. Sooner or later I think I'll go crazy or something, if all of these are going on without any promises to progress.

I really miss the old care-free life, with less responsibilities, less nagging in my ears, and away from home.

I miss you, my old-self. Will you come back to me?